Big news!

I started knitting again yesterday after a hiatus of four and a half weeks! Yay! I would have checked in earlier, but decided emotional blogging ( "I’m never ever knitting again!!”) would simply be a bad idea.

I was with the ex for over 4 years…even longer than I’ve been knitting! He witnessed the initial “wheee! I’m knitting!” moment, the first sweater, the frenzied Mayflower Knits business knitting, and of course the growing stash. Most of my knitting was done on his couch, or on long roadtrips we used to take. So naturally knitting after the breakup was completely out of the question! All my WIPS, and even parts of the stash brought back too many unwanted memories and associations. I bagged them all up, threw my stash in a closet and really had no desire to see them again. It was frustrating, because as we’ve all heard, knitting is supposed to be the one thing that helps you through difficult times. I remember knitting like crazy during my grandfather’s wake and funeral 2 months ago, but with this breakup, I stayed far far away. The funny thing is although I distanced myself from knitting and from the knitting world, I still checked for new arrivals on Elann every few days! Once a yarn ho, always a yarn ho! :o)

I knew I was addicted enough to knitting and yarn, that I would eventually have to return to the needles, but I didn’t know when. This waiting period was disheartening, especially when you have a knitting blog and your stash and WIPS take up a good part of your one bedroom apartment! Yesterday as I was wallowing in my post 4^th of july face stuffing (eating a whole funnel cake by yourself is never a great idea), I thought “I feel like knitting!” And I did, and it felt wonderful! There are a few wips that I’m still staying away from, but there should be some knitting activity to show soon!

Thank you all for your support and thoughts over the last CRAZY couple of months! It has been so greatly appreciated!

oh....and a "daddy" update next time! hehehe

Comments

[April]

It's so good to get back to yourself, at least you probably won't associate your knitting with your next relationship.

I've had fun telling that 'daddy' story! It's so stinking funny, can barely wait for the update =)*)

[wenders]

Glad you're back, kiddo! :) And because I always seem to share my own stories -

My ex (we'd been together 3 1/2 years) was the reason I started knitting. There were only so many sporting events I could watch with her without doing SOMETHING. So I know how you feel - when we broke up, I didn't really want to knit, either. Something about sitting there just THINKING just wasn't what I was into. But one of my WIPs was for her - a sweater. And I didn't know what to do with it. It was my first REAL sweater and I didn't want to give up. So I finished knitting it. It was a lot like therapy. It made me remember the good stuff. And I gave it to her last summer. I don't know what she did with it, or if she'd ever wear it, or if she even kept it. But it made me start knitting again. :)

Like I said, glad you're back.

[SmurfPop]

Aww, good on you for picking up those needles again! Keep at it - just remember all the good stuff whilst you are knitting and then you'll have something positive from the situation :) I may just be talking out of my derriere here, I do apologise! xxx

[Saun]

4 years is definitely a long time and sometimes you need to take a break from things. It's good that you've come back to it. It will be therapetic. I can't wait for a "daddy" update.

[betzig]

Glad to see you back. Can't wait to hear about the next "daddy" update.

[laughingrat]

Boy, can I sympathize with that. Glad your knitting is once again something you can enjoy!

[delia]

I hear yah, especially on the 'checking Elann on a bi-weekly basis'. Even when I was down and didn't feel like clicking the needles, the yarn p0rn was just too hard to walk away from!

[Shannon]

Welcome back. I took a several month knitting hiatus when I was pregnant with child #2. I thought I'd want to knit baby things but I was completely uninterested. Obviously, it wasn't permanent.

[janna]

Glad you're back! I stopped cross-stitching when I got divorced, then went through a number of hobbies (including trying to go back to cross-stitch) before I got to knitting. It's the first hobby to absorb me like cross-stitch.

[Julia]

Yay!! Good for you! What a great post. I especially appreciate your "yarn ho" comment, hehe. Even when knitting isn't fun anymore for whatever reason, the fiber beckons...

[Beak Knits]

I am so sorry to hear about the breakup.

Very sensible to put down the yarn....I can't knit when upset, bad vibes all around.

Hope you're doing better!

[Dani]

Don't let the fact that you have a knitting blog put pressure on you. My blog started out to be about knitting but when I realized that I wasn't knitting much any more, I just changed it. I'm sure I lost a few readers who showed up just for the knitting, but the people were interested in my life as a whole stuck around.

[Dani]

May, thanks for commenting on my blog. As you can see, my blog is more about poetry and boardgames than knitting these days. However, I have two people very close to me who are trying to get pregnant so I will have some baby knitting in my future!

[LisaB]

So glad that you felt like doing something that you enjoy again! Breakups are hard..but it is good to see you get a eency bit past some things. Hooray - can't wait to see what you are working on!